Embrace

So I hurt my ankle pretty bad on Tuesday so I did not run yesterday or today. My ankle feels a lot better though so I am HOPING I can run tomorrow :). I really have missed it. My days are always so much better when I've gone out and ran. Doesn't even matter what my distance was just running period makes me feel great!

Onto my little thought for the day. The other night one of my besties Chanda :) posted a cute picture of her and I and our friend LaChelle (oh and miss Oaklee:)) from last summer. It was right before I had Kanan. First of all I'm so grateful for the memory I have of this time with my friends and am even more grateful that the precious little boy Lincoln is now a strong and happy one year old!

But seeing that picture made me realize how big I really was. I knew the scale said 192 but never took the time to truly look at myself. I refused pictures usually because I knew I was big, but man I really was in denial because this picture shocked me. At first I was SO embarrassed that people would see me SO huge. Then I felt ashamed that I had allowed myself to get that way. But after my pity party for oh about 30 minutes I decided to embrace it and use it to fuel my motivation in continuing my weightloss.

One other thing though is that I got my handsome mr man out of this and I would NOT CHANGE ANYTHING. Yes I should've exercised and yes I should've eaten better, but you know what you live you learn and grow from it. It was my last pregnancy and boy did I have fun giving into all my cravings and eating whatever I wanted lol! I enjoyed myself and that's all that matters right?

Anyway I've now changed my eating habits and the rest I've said in previous posts. I just wanted to share this picture basically for my own journaling purposes. I'm no longer ashamed or embarrassed of where I was. I've embraced it and am moving on. I will forever cherish that visit with two very important women in my life!

Me, Chanda, LaChelle and miss Oaklee :)

Me 48 lbs less at 144 :) and still losing

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Day 2

So today was day 2 of the challenge and I was already really sore from my run yesterday so I decided to take it fairly easy. I did a little workout in my house ie squats, lunges, and bicep curls with my little weights :). Then the kids and I walked 2 miles to Kevin's work to get the car. Unfortunately I was bad and only had a smoothie until 7pm and then had spinach with chicken. I need to be consistent with eating so I don't send myself into starvation mood.

Tomorrow I plan on running outside for the first time so we'll see how it goes :)!!

Day 1

Last night I measured myself so that I could see my progress throughout this journey. I also weighed myself this morning before my run and after. I won't be weighing myself again until next Monday.
Before my run: 152.8 lbs
After my run : 151.4 lbs

So I woke up this morning excited but also a little nervous about my run. I haven't gone for a run in a month so I figured it may be difficult. I don't know if having those thoughts set me up for having a difficult run but it was a toughy. Like always I woke up got dressed and headed to the treadmill. I long to run outside but honestly it intimidates me. A mini goal fir myself this week is to run outside in the fresh morning air :). So I got into the gym and started my run...almost immediately my pants started to slide down so I had to try and pull them up while running (quite the sight I'm sure). Also I have headphones that will NOT stay in my ears. I have to hold the wire by chin just to keep it steady so they won't pop out every 2 seconds. I stopped to speed walk 3 times and I only ran 1.8 miles. My pave was faster than normal but I had to stop more which is frustrating.

When my run was over I immediately felt nauseas and my stomach was in knots. This run really did a number on me and it wasn't even two miles! I know that it will get better but it's so hard to think positively when I was so miserable this morning. Now that I don't feel sick I feel pretty good. I know tomorrow I will do better. I may slow my pace so I can run the whole time without wiping out.

I just had my TNI restore protein shake which really made me feel great! I'll do another workout tonight and have another shake. I'm also having a fat flush today to help clean out my body. The run helped speed everything up and I could feel it. Even though I was exhausted and sick from running I do feel better and know that it can only get better. My promise to myself is to have POSITIVE THOUGHTS ONLY :)!

My sister in law asked if I wanted to do a half marathon with her in September and knowing that there are only 8 weeks to train I'm hesitant to say yes. They have a 5k that I am seriously considering. That is only 3.1 miles and I know I could train well for it and possibly get a GREAT time, which would be awesome! I've never ran a race before so I think starting out with a 5k might be more realistic than a half marathon which is 13 miles. I'll run the next two weeks and then decide what I'll do.


Here is to day 2 and knowing a GREAT run awaits me in the morning :)

2 Week Challenge

Tomorrow Monday July 11, 2011 I will start my journey. I've already been on a journey really, but need to start fresh and hit it hard. My body needs a shock and a complete lifestyle makeover. First by cleansing my body of all the Yucky toxins that have been storing up in my body and then by pushing my body to limits I never thought possible.

I've always dreamt of being a runner but honestly hated it in highschool and never gave it a fair shot. So in May of this year I started to run. Small distances that in all honestly KICKED MY BUTT (I'm talking like a mile and a half tops), I would be red, out of breath and dripping sweat, but I FELT AWESOME. It surprised me to feel so alive and to have SO much energy. I was hooked and I was so excited to get more involved with this new "high".

Well the beginning of June we took a family trip to Disneyland (yay!) and it was so much fun. I did not work out at all while I was there which meant no running to keep me hooked and motivated. I made the decision to not take my running shoes because I was determined to "relax" on this trip (relaxing at Dland with 3 little girls? Not so much, but fun!), that was a BAD decision because for me running is relaxing. Hind sight is always 20/20, so I acknowledge where I went wrong and will not make that mistake again. Unfortunately my one bad decision just snowballed into a bunch of bad decisions(talking in reference to exercising of course), so needless to say the whole month of June was wasted. We got home and after 8 days of no exercise I was in a state of laziness and depression. My excitement and drive to get out and run was almost completely gone. I knew if I got out a just ran I would feel GREAT but I lacked the self motivation to get off my butt and go. I used every excuse and at the end of every day I felt worse and worse. I was longing for that awesome feeling I got from running but did nothing to help myself.

Well that pity party is SO over! Starting tomorrow it IS ON! I AM waking up before hubby goes to work and running. No excuses no excuses no excuses! This is a lifestyle/attitude change with a bonus of weightless (hopefully)! I will track my workouts and my food intake and promise myself to only get on that dang scale once a week (right now I'm obsessed and it's every day). I am so excited for this journey and I have an AWESOME group of people supporting me over at Facebook in the 2 Week Challenge group.

See you here tomorrow :)!